oregon coast.

We drove to the
coast yesterday.

just me and danielle.

sang at the top of our lungs,
laughed about or inside joke,
ate a million cheese its.
took tons of pitures,
counted how many cops there were,
talked about drama,
walked the beach with sand between our toes,
talked about how this beach didnt come close to a beach in hawaii,
made up words to a made up song,
and had a picnic on the beach,
tried to tan,
and walked and looked around at the cutest stores
and
wished summer felt alot more like summer.

i closed my eyes, and for a minute,
imagined i was in hawaii,
i missed it more than i ever had.

lately.

i've only been writing in my journal.
its cool.
not just the,
dear journal,
blah blah blah
kinda stuff.
i write places
i went that day,
fun things i heard
+
everything that
made my day
happy
or
exciting.
i love it.

matathesiophobia.

its a sad day when, someone you know, becomes someone you knew.

dear jerome,

i dont know what i would do without you.
you are my happy thought.
i love you.

"today is shopping day"

today is one of those days were
i looked at the twins and smiled,
they both are my favorite.
both my best friends.
and if anyone can make me laugh,
the twins are on it.

"if im not back in an hour, im either dead or in heaven."
"lets get camping chairs and sit in the living room."
"you make the dinner i'll do the dishes. good idea?"
"if i come back and there are two girls here im gonna hurt you."
"wanna walk me next door?"
"lets make brownies, ok, (making brownies) when do we put the chocolate in?"

thanks,

J&S

guess what.

i got a pedicure,
and now i have,
ten toe nails.

ten toe nails?

no more like 9 and 1/4
sad sad sad.
my poor big toe has lost
almost all of its nail,
so i have to blog about it
cause
i cried!
not cause it hurt,
but,
because its
UGLY.
now, since im spoiled,
im going to get a
fake toe nail.
its almost summer
and i dont want ugly
toes.

vampire diaries.

its my favorite show as of right now.

goal #1: stay focused.

you cannot depend on our eyes,

when your imagination,

is out if

foucs.

if you cant..

catch a break

then

keep running.

thats how i feel right now.

everything will be

going and going

in not always the direction

i want it to go.

so im still gonna

run

even with all the

drama that keeps

happening.

ikea.

my super cool friend soon to be new neighbor danielle and i

are having a bake sale!!!

and that means of course i need a flirty apron!

not that im an awesome baker yet!

but i will be if i get one of these babies.

plus all the money that we get; hopefully, will go to our ikea fund.

ps. dani is awesome at bake goods, im so excited we are gonna be neighbors.

i love her treats!

may.

im thankful for:

new friends.

a very clean organized apartment.

best friends.

J&S

new apartment.

isnt it cute??

im so in love with it.

and 24 hour gym+room for a puppy.

im sooo excited.

plus they gave a $600 gift card for moving in, to

fred myer.

cant wait to use it!

the places we will go.

gotta chase a dream thats all your own.

before it slips away.

saturday.

tonight i stayed home from the

Katchafyah concert

&

a night out with

my favorite twins,

i made this pretty thing.

feathers and hair things are my new happy place.

and instead of spending $20 on one,

well, i just decided to make them,

and make them in the colors

i love.

earlier today.

girl::whats your boys number?

me::oh he's number 94.

girl::oh so you are dating him too?

(her babes number)

me:: oh my goodness i did not mean to say that,

he's number 93.

thank goodness she was laughing when i said that.

(shame, i cant believe i said 94, and then the real 94 adds me on facebook, double shame)

journals.

i really want a journal that is:

fun to write in.
now all i need to do is:

actually go out and get one.

but, i know when i get there:

i'll have a hard time choosing

&

wont buy one.

So i think i'll just:

keep writing in a notebook.

till:

i get the guts up and just:

Buy one.

im loving...

this color right here!!

zebra tap.

my new "boyfriend."
i love it.

(ps im so excited that its zebra too.)

happy sunday.

Aaron Sterling Mace.

I can't believe you are turning five!

oh how i love the stories dad always tells me about you,

and how you learned how to start a fire with a magnifying glass..

so they found you the biggest one they had so you could explore in

the back yard.

i love you little bro!

dont grow up to fast please.

love you forever!

one of four of your big sisters.

my BFF.

I know im late, cause its past your birthday, but i still want to do 20 things that i love about you, well seeing as though you are now the big TWO ZERO!

1. when we first met+started working together, we hated each other. (all time favorite, since now we look back and laugh about it!)

2. when im having one of "those kind of days" i can call you and we can laugh the whole time!

3. we can text each other all day, and then call each other and talk forever!

4. all our inside jokes we've had.

5. in high school when we hated going to class, we would just going shopping with mom.

6. staying up all night laughing, and well that one "text" your mom sent us... then came down stairs to ask us if she really wrote that! hahaha

7. you know all the right things to say.

8. our tour de temple nights we use to have.

9. walking to walmart, in the snow and slipping on the ice.

10. we can chill inside all day and watch movies, you watch and my eyes, they kinda just close and rest.

11. knowing that i was one of the first people to know you were coming home from africa early, even though, i had know idea since i was sick and never checked my email. (sorry)

12. randomly spending a few hours in utah together, since who know we would be in the same state, and that time.

13.luau days.

14. when we both lived in laie and we walked each other half way home. (i miss those days)

15. riding with random people in their cars so we could see each other for the weekend.

16. ben and jerrys: half baked ice cream.

17. long talks about stupid boys.

18. swimming at the beach.. i still remember when you were the one who got me to like the beach.

19. sneaky sleepovers.

20. always being there when i needed you!

thanks best friend!

lately.

: i love Odwalla strawberry smoothies.
: clean clothes and that the laundrymat has wifi.
: walking around the mall.
: as much as i hate job hunting, i love that it gets me up and ready and out of the house.
: looking at photo blogs, nothing gets me like a good picture.
: watching movies with my boyfriend, we've seen every movie that is out.
: looking for a new phone, but hoping my phone still gets sent back to me.
: writing with a new pen.
: aussie hair stuff, i love the smell.

Finding a J.O.B

Is alot harder than people make is seem, i've been on the hunt for three weeks!! yes three freaking weeks! Not to metion that i've been hired for two jobs, that i know i would not like at all, are the only jobs that i've actually had a call back for, i've applied at a temp agency!! and i had to pee in a cup, which i also had to set my pee right next to another persons, cup of pee, really! it was gross, i've sent my resume to everyone on craigslist, listing a job that i might like, but a hundred other people probably like too, and the only thing that i have left is apllying a an old folks home, i probably might have alot more luck finding a job there, then any where else, jeeze louise, i just was a job so mama bonnie doesnt have to keep putting money in the bank for two people, ( i love her to death! and everything she does her he son and i) all i really want is a job, that i can go to every day, and have a pay check every 2 weeks, if only a random person would walk up to make and ask me to work for them, but then again i just really want a job to bring home money and pay my rent.

wish me some luck and that i might get some more emails.

...

Dear heart,
i know you feel like this right now, but maybe the person that keeps you feeling dumb, will say sorry sooner or later, maybe, but dont count on it k. just cry a little bit and not alot. and you'll feel better. promise.
love me

credit reports!

are seriously sooooo dumb and i just really want an interview i dont wanna know that i dont have credit history, or that to be a babysitter i have to show them a credit report!! what the! are you freaking kidding me! to babysit your kid i have to have a credit score, and freecreditreport.com you are a liar! You are NOT free! you cost $15a month and i just want to see it for a good moment, not look at it for a month!

ugh so i just really hope that it doesnt stop me from having an interview,cause i would really LOVE one!

ps, where is my phone charger, it got lost in the 16 hour car drive cause i cant find it anywhere. lame.

new roads.

.16hour drive with chelle.
."why cant we find a mcdonalds i swear there was one in every town."
.Rain, Snow, Fog, Snow+fog, Rain+fog, Hail, misty ugly stuff from under the tires.
.Cathy Current BLUR
.listening to the same cd for hours.
.Cracker Barrel.
.Good sister memories, thats for sure.




ps. i live by the ocean.